Thursday, July 31, 2008

A Struggle for Motivation

So. My tri is Sunday. Three days away.

I do not feel ready at all.

At. All.

Thanks to the lift of DOOM earlier this week, today was the first day since then that it didn't hurt to walk - or move, for that matter. I knew I should get in a small workout of some sort before I do nothing on Saturday but rest, foam roll and take a nice walk, but motivation was hard to come by.

Maybe it's because my workout buddy is in Atlanta. Maybe it's because, even though I have a time goal in mind for the tri, I already know I'll finish so I'm not too concerned. Hell, maybe I'm just lazy. Maybe it's my mind's way of saying, "You already don't feel ready, so a little bit now isn't going to help you at all. What's the point?," being its negative little self that it tends to be on occasion.

Regardless, I went to the gym anyway. I donned a pair of shorts over my spandex tri shorts as to not feel like a total nerd and got on the treadmill. Five minute warm-up at 5.7mph followed by two cycles of the 2/3 sprints - at 3.5mph and 6.5mph.

I discarded my socks, shoes and shorts and slid into the pool, swimming a very slow 400m in a little over 10 minutes.

To my epic frustration, a shoelace came out of the little quick zip dealy-bobs and, since it's cut and not a nice small point like before, I have no idea how to get it back in before Sunday.

Argh.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

in all apprehension I wanna say:

can I ask you to change your thoughts?

to try and shift your mindset a smidge to the positive (I CAN DO THIS. I FEEL A LITTLE BETTER TODAY AND SHALL BE WORLDS MORE HEALED BY SUNDAY).
I know it is beyond hard (beyond in that Im too wimpy to have ever even attempted a tri---so Im not not honoring your fear. good sentence huh?) but I believe in the law of attraction.
I know at your core youre ready and one or 2 I CAN DO THIS thought(s) will bring more.

and you can.

xo xo,

Miz.